urghH!! im soo fed-up with my life rite now.. no! maybe i shud sae parent.. dammit! y muz they keep finding fault in me? im soo fucked up lar.. cant i go out wif my cuzzin? n mum! my cuzzin is ur sis's daughter too okeyy. soo y muz u still treat me tis wayy?? wad's so wrong bout sleeping her house for a couple of days? u shud be happyy tt im finally spending tym wif my relativess.. bt urgh!! if it's bcoz u missed me, y cant u sae nicelyy.. by scolding, it wud make u feel gd izzit?? n now guess wad? she dun wanna buy my school books..!! Farkk!! how cud a mother did tis to their own children?? fine.. maybe she didnt mean it bt hello! im hurt okeeyy.! n too bad i take her words for real.. nvm.. its fine with me if she didnt wanna buy.. i can use the 250 bucks.. oh yahh! sleeping my cuzzin's house will give her an advantage wat.! i mean she doesnt have to give my pocket moneyy! soo she cud save a few buckss.im helping her n tis is wad i get in returnn! URGHh!!

this is pure dumb luckk! im afraid i will be grounded for the time beingg.. sheeshh.. i hate it! CANT I HAVE more FREEDOM?? im trying to be contented wif wad i have bt i still failed.. n i wonder y.. dammit... in a few mins tym, they will be home.. n yah! im sure i'll be scolded non-stop.. shall update wad happened hopefully by tml.. if i cud use the com lar.. wish me luckk peeps...bt haiyo! the most i did when she scolds me will be cryy?? i juz dislike it when ppl scolds me.. esp when i dun even agree wif tt sumone..! n now im afraid for wanee as well.. dammit.! y cant there be peace sia?? i dun feel like going home todayy.. n i even gt tis CRAZY idea to be involved in an accidentt! n then blame my parent for asking us to go home earlyy.. i swear i was about to do it..bt yah.. wanee stopped me..! thx anw..

soo here i am.. bak home safe and sound.. bt nt for longg.. im sure the nagging im gonna get will be enuf to kill me! sheeesshh!! darn! im really scared.. im nt prepared to get any scoldings! esp frm my mum[who eventually dun really understand my situation].. bt i did told her the other tym.. i said lar " mak nie aper sehh.. tk pernah nk understand my situation".. n at the same tym i cried.. bt she didnt show any reaction.. i tink bcoz she dunno wad im sayingg since im cryinng at the same tym.. watever larr.. bt still NO MATTER WHAT, she's still my MUm.. n i LOVE her loadss.. maybe its for my own good too! soo no hard feelinggs..im juz venting my anger earlier bt i dun want u guys to feel tt i hate her.. i DONT! n i will NEVER Hate her.. coz hate is nt exactly the word..

im still scared sehh.. i juz dunno y.. k lar.. i tink i betta go b4 she's home.. i cud be scolded aGAIN! tata guys..

n remember!
i STILL LOVE MY MUMMY NO MATTER WHAT! whatever happened is for the good of me..
I loVE u mummy!
n i really hope u wud change ur attitude abit..
bt im nt forcing larr..
bb guys..
take care!

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