jamal finally called me last night.haix. just when i thought of giving up on him, he make himself appeared again. frankly, when my phone's ringing and i saw his name, i was reluctant to answer. i dont know if i should feel happy or angry. i mean of course there are parts of me that miss him and really wanna hear his cute voice but there's also another part of me that hates him for not replying my msg/call me late night.

i ended up answering it, but with the unhappy tone of course. and the first thing that he said when i said hello was "baby?" :)okey, i know this is weird but everytime he calls me that, i feel so happy and for a minute, i forgot about all those angers i had previously.
anw when he said that, i didnt say 'yes dady?' like i always do. i just said ' oh. hello.'.

obviously he knows im unhappy. so he quickly apologized for not contacting me and things like that. aww. i didnt have to tell the reason! :D
even so, im still unhappy cause afterall, saying sorry is not enough ryte. i mean u did all those things to me, made me think of all those wrong things, come up with false accusation and all u did to solve it is by saying sorry and nothing elsE? ok, at least something but its just not enough to compensate with my feelings.

anyway, his reason for MIA-ing is mainly because he was asked back to his camp for 3 days straight. and he forgot to bring his phone along. -_-'
i was having doubts even though it did sound realistic and logical. and i think i show it too much. and i guess i hurt him for that. sigh.im sorry syg but what am i to do if thats really how i feel kan.
i hate NS! i really do!

i told him about john and its obvious he's envious. he even said ' no wonder la baby tk kol i these few days'. i feel so bad the instant he said those words. and i tried to comfort him, insisting that john is not the excuse and he just said 'yes baby.okey'. and i know for a fact that he also has some uncertainty.

so anyway there came a point where i said 'eh i nyer pasal ah nk notti2 ker tknk'. the moment i said that, i swear i was cursing myself for being so heartless. his tone after tt was serious. and i mean VERY serious.it was the first time ever i heard tt kind of tone from him.. and that was when i regret saying tt. it was just a slip of my tongue man. haix.how can i be soo foolish!?so anyway here's how it goes like.

him :"eh baby asal ckp cm gitu? asal baby mcm gyni nie?"
me: "eh betol per. u sendiri tk contact i semuer abeh i notti2 uh ngn laki. tak salah sey. "

(he was speechless. and i thats when i realised hes really serious.)

him: "eh you!! i bukan mcm...."
me: *interrupt him* .dady! dgr la.. i maen2 jer la. i nyer org kan setia. trust me on that k syg."
him: "yelah tapi u asl sey ckp cm gytu?"
me: "u tak caye i ehk!? relax la u. i dun mean wad i say lah. baby syg dady ajer! tkder org lain luh.."
him: "tk la. i cayer u. tu pasal i nak kahwin ngan u!"
me: "ahh yelahh tu. i nk kahwin biler umur i 25 tau."
him: "okey baby. anything u say.mwarks! u, once dah kahwin i nk *************"

HAHA. i cant help but to laugh even louder. and the fact that i layaned him makes it even more hilarious. seriously people, hes cute kan. awww..ok . enough about him..

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