i know u are reading this. listen hard.

im really speechless. aku dah tk tau aper lagy harus aku ckp.
nak kata aku give up, aku tk smpi hati. tapi ko sendiri ckp ko pon give up..
i said i gave up simply because i wanna see the kind of reaction u would give.
but ur response now is just too disappointing.

the thing i want to know is, am i really your bestfriend in the first place?? or were u saying those words for the sake of cheering me up?

am i right to say it was all part of ur consoling actions and that you dont mean any of it?

what bout those period of time when u said im like ur own sisters, not just a bestfriend?

i dont think u noe this but those words tt u uttered ystd keeps playing in my mind everywhere i go. the fact tt u wanted me as ur normal friends only is enough to make my day bad.

"hamizah,pls, aku tknk tngok ko sedih sgt, aku tau ko maseh marah.aku act mmg bingit ngn ko pon, tapi all the same, aku nk blg ko yg aku maseh trust ko, whther aku secretive ke tk. ko tkyah worry.u did ur part as my bestfrnd by keepng me happy.. it doesnt matter if im nt ur bestfrned, or u dun trust me etc. like i say, sory if im the cause of all the unhappiness"

i wish u would say those words back instead of saying what u said. i dont know. u keep contradicting urself until i myself dont know exactly which to believe. to be honest, im beyond devastated. im too sad to carry on with life. you were my strenghts but now that ure gone, aku dah mcm hilang arah tujuan.

now, if this is wad u want me to be, congrats. u did it.

if i really meant alot to u, im sure u noe wad to do. like we all have learnt, avoiding and severing ties is not the solution.

AND THIS TIME, PLEASE BE TRUTHFUL . i beg u. kejujuran hati jer yg aku minta. susah sgt ker?

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